Feeling disconnected from myself
I’m feeling pretty low right now, and I’m not sure why. I think it’s probably a combination of things ranging from mundane and, ulitimately, small issues – not getting enough sleep last night, having an off eating schedule today, realizing the four day weekend is almost over – to larger issues that have been weighing on my mind – the recent irregular communication issues weith G, the slump I always feel after a big performance is over, concerns at work, and so on.
So even though it’s Saturday night and friends are in town who I don’t get to see often (SS, TV, MF) my inclination is to stay home and curl up with a book to drown out the darkness swirling around my head.
And I’m worried that when I do go out – because just staying home would get me in trouble with these friends who I won’t see again for months – I’ll be in such a blah mood that I’ll be poor company anyway.
Goody.
-R