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Flowers!!

By , March 6, 2012 2:15 pm

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Spring spring spring spring spring!

Sex, sexuality, and surgery

By , December 12, 2011 1:34 pm

No one looks like they're enjoying this situation, to be honest

In Which A Question Is Asked

What does it mean to be a sexual trans person? A sexual trans woman?

Sidenote: I’m looking for my copy of Fucking Trans Women, an awesome e-zine available at¬†http://fuckingtranswomen.com/. I know I bought and downloaded it, but am having trouble finding it. I emailed the site owners, tho, and hopefully they’ll be willing to send me another copy. At the very worst, I can spare another $5 for their great project.

Back on topic, I think being trans and sexual is tough for me (gonna try to use ‘I’ statements in this post, and not make generalizations) in part due to the huge variety of mixed messages I’ve received over the last 27 years. I’m sure I’m missing some categories, but here’s what I’ve come up with:

  • Messages about male sexuality, even though I didn’t identify as male
  • Messages about female sexuality, which I picked up even though I wasn’t yet presenting as female
  • Messages about heterosexual sexuality, mainly from when I was presenting as a straight male
  • Messages about queer sexuality, both before and after I came out
  • Messages about specifically lesbian sexuality, again from both before and after I came out
  • And last-but-never-least, messages about specifically¬†trans sexuality, limited primarily to ‘chicks with dicks’ and ‘she-male’ porn

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No Gender Left Behind – Kansas City video

By , October 27, 2011 4:19 pm

Enjoy!

New Sex Ed video

By , June 10, 2011 12:31 pm

Played with some new music and new footage. Lemme know what you think! (For comparison, here is my last attempt.)

Sex Ed video v2 from Rebecca Kling on Vimeo.

Israeli Aparthied?

By , May 27, 2011 4:02 pm

That’s right, I’m wading back into Israel. Not satisfied with my recent post about Israel, Obama’s speech, and the 1967 borders/lines/whatever, an article I saw in my Google News feed caught my eye. The Sacramento Bee disappointingly reprinted a total fluff piece entitled “New York LGBT Center Taking Sides of Anti Semites.” The subtitle is “Michael Lucas Organizes Boycott,” and the piece is by none other than one Michael Lucas. Way to be classy. I’m not linking to the piece, since it’s total propaganda, but it did make me really curious about the organization being referenced, Queers Against Israeli Apartheid. And, more broadly, is Israel supporting a state of apartheid?

(For the record, I do think this discussion and disagreement is newsworthy, I just think it’s really poor reporting to reprint a biased self-written press release supporting a specific position. So I’m not opposed to the Sacramento Bee reporting something,¬† just on how they chose to report.)

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Kickstarter project: Journey to Washington DC

By , February 9, 2011 3:56 pm

I just launched a Kickstarter project to help send me to Washington DC for the National Center for Transgender Equality lobby day! Here’s my explanation video:

And a transcript:
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What does it mean to be a girl?

By , December 9, 2010 1:45 pm

A follow-up to What does it mean to be a boy?

  • STRENGTH!
  • Having boobs!
    More responsibilities
  • Shaving your legs
  • To know shame at an early age
  • My sheets have red splotches on them
  • Jumping ropes with braids
  • …and a pigtail!
  • Expected to have kids
  • Be able to bear children
  • Or…when you want to be, you can be a girl
  • Cuddling with me
  • Being strong
  • What makes you most happy
  • Power
  • PERIOD!

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Not in Kansas anymore…

By , August 27, 2010 2:09 pm

…or even Chicago! Here are some pics I’ve taken in Colorado.

Flying from Denver to Durango

Flying from Denver to Durango

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Ba(r/t) Mitzvah – Movement Piece

By , July 16, 2010 10:38 am

This is a movement piece based on the emotional experience of my Bar Mitzvah. The prompt from my choreographer was to find and distill specific moments from pre/mid/post Bar Mitzvah, and essentialize them into movement phrases. Enjoy!

Rewriting history

By , February 27, 2010 6:06 am

One of the things I’ve been thinking about, as I figure out a way to focus on the future instead of dwelling on the past, is what moments I feel I ‘missed out’ on. There is a whole lifetime of experiences I feel like I’ve missed, but I’m hoping I can find a few specific moments to explore through performance. And, by doing so, and really exploring these moments to their height, I’m hoping to find some sense of resolution about having ‘missed out’ and be able to start looking forward.

Here’s the list I have so far. My rule for myself is I have to put down anything I feel like I missed out on by not growing up and being socialized as a girl, no matter how silly or inconsequential my adult mind thinks it is. I don’t think I’ll explore all of these things on stage, but I’d like to at least try and see where things go, and what feels the most raw (and thus the most important).

  • Playing with dolls
  • Playing dress-up
  • Having slumber parties
  • Having a Bat Mitzvah
  • Learning how to put on makeup (this is a big one, and one I just need to sit down and practice)
  • Horrible, awkward, clothing shopping with my mom
  • Going to awkward middle school dances in a pretty dress (or even in an ugly dress)
  • Going to prom in a pretty dress

How ’bout it, gang? What pivotal moments of girlhood or growing up female need to go on this list? As I said, my entire goal is to be as ridiculous and indulgent as possible. There are parts of me that feel like my regret is silly, that I should be happy about who I am now, not regret who I wasn’t. And, consciously, I think that’s true. I just can’t get myself to really believe it, in my core. But if I can flood myself with things I ‘missed,’ maybe I can realize I didn’t miss anything – that who I am today just fine.

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