If it quacks like a duck…

By , February 6, 2009 11:05 pm

In my most recent post I mentioned how I’ve been forgetting to eat when I’m stressed. And I had a moment where I realized that, if someone described the situation from the outside, I would feel very differently about things than I do from within.

That is, how would I respond if someone said to me, “I have this friend whose been really stressed lately. In fact, a few times in the last month or so she’s forgotten to eat and has made herself sick as a result – she gets really nauseous and dizzy, and one time was out of commission for over 12 hours. Do you think she’s developing an eating disorder?”

I’d probably say yes. Not a conscious one – she isn’t chosing not to eat to lose weight, or as an intentional defense mechanism – but yeah, probably.

And I’m working on it now, so I don’t think it’s the end of the world or anything. But what else is going on my my life that I don’t see from the inside?

-R

Warning Signs

By , February 2, 2009 10:55 am

Warning signs I’m over-stressed about something(s):

  • I stay up late reading when I know I should go to bed
    • Particularly true if I’m rereading a book, so already know what happens, and I stay up late reading anyway
  • I start reading more trans fiction, particularly forced-feminization fiction
    • This has been the subject of pasts posts and – since I’m doing it again – probably the subject of a new post one of these days
  • New! Apparently, I forget to eat when I’m stressed
    • Three times in the last two months I’ve forgotten to eat a meal or two, gotten horrendously dizzy, and knocked myself out of commission for 6-12 hours

And it’s just great that, within the last 24 hours, I’ve hit all three. It’s like it was a contest or something…

-R

Something to ride

By , February 1, 2009 9:12 pm

Me: I managed to sell that old laptop they gave me on Craigslist and I want to get your roommates something nice.

G: OK. Well, they’re moving in a few months, so probably something consumable or portable.

Me: Or rideable.

G: Like a pony.

Me: Or a jet-skie.

G: Or a male stripper.

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