In my most recent post I mentioned how I’ve been forgetting to eat when I’m stressed. And I had a moment where I realized that, if someone described the situation from the outside, I would feel very differently about things than I do from within.
That is, how would I respond if someone said to me, “I have this friend whose been really stressed lately. In fact, a few times in the last month or so she’s forgotten to eat and has made herself sick as a result – she gets really nauseous and dizzy, and one time was out of commission for over 12 hours. Do you think she’s developing an eating disorder?”
I’d probably say yes. Not a conscious one – she isn’t chosing not to eat to lose weight, or as an intentional defense mechanism – but yeah, probably.
And I’m working on it now, so I don’t think it’s the end of the world or anything. But what else is going on my my life that I don’t see from the inside?